Emotions..

It's been a very very long time since I last blog. Anyone misses me?? Haha! Lots of things had happened in 2 weeks. Super packed schedule, with lots of emotions arising.

In 2 weeks, I realised I love my pupils, my dear and some of my cg members a lot. Brought the TAF pupils out in the 1st week of holidays. I couldn't help but love them and was very proud of them. We'd completed a more than 10km walk for the day and they did not really complained about it. Instead, one gal was extremely sweet to walk up to me to thank me. My last yr's "heartache" even offered to help me carry things. I was so touched by their actions. Indeed, this is all I want to hear from them. All the hard work is worthwhile. It is worth the price. Similarly, to God, it is worthwhile for Jesus to die on the cross for us, in order that we can know Him and be saved. It will make it even more worthwhile, if we love Him much much more and are willing to go all out for Him.

Spent 2 days with my dear and I realised I really love her a lot. I couldn't bear to leave her alone and it hurts me to see her sad. It hurts me when I think that she deserves so much more than what she has now. I wanted to bless her as much as I can. I guess this is what true and pure love is all about. It's about giving. Thank God she has other friends who care as much for her as well. They had been giving and spending time with her also. Thank God for them.

Had a great fellowship time with my cg members after service on Sun. Actually, we just went shopping. Thank God for the time of bonding. I remembered when I 1st came into the CG. I had a strong feeling that I need to get the sisters close to me. However, I find it quite hard for me to enter into the life of one of them. We seldom spend time together because either she had to leave early or I had to leave early. Last Sun was a great opportunity that we could shop together and share things along the way. I thanked her for her sincere hug during Tuesday's Emerge conference. Really thank God for helping us to breakthrough in our relationship.

If you have been reading my blog from the very beginning, you would have known that I love hugs. All my life, only my dear has been giving me the warmest and most sincere hugs. It doesn't mean that when others hug me they are not sincere. Just that many times I can feel "shyness" in those hugs. When we withhold something, our hugs will not be complete. (Haha! I sounded like I'm very professional in hugs) Well, I really do care alot about hugs. Many times I don't really need much. Just a sincere and warm hug will do. My beloved gal gave me a warm and sincere hug on Tuesday. That hug was so wonderful because I could sense the love of God from it. Finally, I found someone besides my dear who hugs without withholding back anything. Thank God for her because that hug gave me comfort on that day.

Lots of things happened within my CG too. It wasn't something very significant or terrible. However, I was rather disappointed in many things. I was angry most of the times. I realised I get angry very easily recently. Is my expectations of people too high? Am I expecting too much from my members? It hurts me to know that sometimes they are not hungry for God. They are not focusing on things that are more important. I couldn't just leave them alone and let them be like this. I love them too much to see them remain the same. I just need to talk to them with love and cover them with lots of prayers. I remember this year's theme for me is LOVE. I just got to love, love and love people more. Thank God for His wondrous love!